“As I grow older, much older, I will experience many things, and I will hit rock bottom again and again. Again and again I will suffer; again and again I will get back on my feet. I will not be defeated. I won’t let my spirit be destroyed.”
text posted 1 year ago with 4 notes tagged: testimony
i figure a huge aspect to why i haven’t gotten the recognition i’d like is due to me sounding like something different in every record i’ve released. every single, either up still or deleted, nothing sounded like the last one. in a lot of cases, i guess this shouldn’t be looked at as a bad thing. it should be looked at as growth. and i have grown. but i feel like people hear me in the same manner you look through a kaleidoscope. segmented & broken. different angles. different views. i haven’t taken time to really introduce myself. so the image of me is fuzzy & unclear. i’ve only been working on records since 2014. but, i shouldn’t latch on the idea of me still being novice. i know what i sound like. i know what i want you all to hear. as that is, i’ve always been a bit self-destructive. problematic. so whatever i got up now on soundcloud now, i can’t promise will stay up past summer. and in the case it all does go, in exchange, i’ll give you me in entirety & honesty. all the shit i hear in my head. all that i can put on record. i’ll hide nothing. these days, i don’t really know what r&b is. so don’t hold me to that. instead, i’ll give you my soul from this point on.
